Why bother ?

Late night studies, digging through piles of notes, finishing a can of Malta after another,2 days gap between each paper...stress ! not to mention the petty drama that's currently going on..

Instead of making you guys yawn and doze off into slumber land, I wont talk about how I'm currently coping with stress.

Apparently you can barely trust anyone these days. Not even your closest of friends. Well minus the really good ones and the ones that are afraid of getting beat up by you.

One lie leads to another. One rumour leads to another. One drama leads to another major drama. Seriously, everything can be resolved by just shutting our mouth up, not asking questions,replying to people's tweet through unmentions and even just click the unfollow button on Twitter.

It does sound easy, but its not to be honest. I mean we all know this. Come on. Who wouldn't want to know the 'hot' gossip. Who wouldn't trash talk about others if others are doing the same thing right ? We know that by replying with an unmention it will cause even more drama and cause more attention but we still do so. Why ? Lust ? Greed ? Gluttony ? 7 Sins ? Perhaps ? Maybe ? Who knows. My bet is on the Lust,Greed and Pride.

If someone's talking bad behind your back, just confront the person, if not just tell your friend whom you can trust. Don't tell your friend and start trash talking about that person. Don't go out and spread bad rumours, whether it is true or false about that said person. That person talks bad about you, let them be. Pray for their well being and for yourself. People say God ignore prayers of those that have bad intentions for others. So instead of praying that the person falls down the stairs or gets electrocuted or rape by monkeys, why not just pray for the person to have a great life far from bad intentions. Don't pray sarcastically though.

Still, why do we never confront those that talk bad behind our backs.. Why ? Is it fear ? or is it because you're just too disgusted with that person that you don't even want to hear people saying their name?

If you think you're not involve in the so called 'war' good. Walk far far away from it. Don't go butting in and ask what. Asking is ok, just don't give your opinion at all. Your name will be used. People will used it to protect themselves. They don't care about you. They just care about themselves. Once asked, walk away. Go read a book or pray or something. Just don't do anything stupid that might get you sucked into the stupid war !

It seriously is a waste of time. Regardless whether he or she is your friend. The guy that created the "Your problems are my problems too" in friendship is an idiot. Just pray that everything goes well for your friend. That's the only thing you can do. The only good thing you can do. Other things will just get you involve and you'll just waste your time in trying to come out with an idea to free your friend from the drama.

I for once am done with all of these.. I pray to Allah everyday so that you guys can resolve whatever bullshit you guys have. From my point of view the one that should really be blamed is....mehh, my opinions don't count. It never was. From the beginning. To be honest, I can easily say "I TOLD YOU SO" to a bunch of people right now but meh who cares. They never gave a damn about me anyway. If you guys read this though..."i told u so". From the moment my advice were ignored, I gave up . I gave up a long time ago.

There are a few funny moments though when things like this happens. People start to act differently. All fake. Like "Oh I'm the type of person that will yell and get agitated easily" while I stand there and be all "Guurrrllllll u aint like that at awwwllllll!" deep inside my heart.

P/s: If you talk about how bad B is to A who is B's best friend, A will tell B. So don't. Just don't. Just shut up and eat an apple pie.

Good Bye A+, A Average, Hello .... ?

Finals finally started for a few of my friends and myself today. My first paper was *drum rolls* Algebra. Retaking the subject this semester since I failed to passed the paper last semester now I have to face it again for finals.

Preparations went great I guess. Did a bunch of past year questions, shoved most of the notes from lectures up my nose to my brain, went to my lecturer's office every time its 4.30PM just to ask her a few questions and so on.

Practically panicked through out the whole preparations since I kept on referring to my notes and previous exercises every time I answer the past year questions. You know you're doomed when your paper is 2 days away and you're still referring to notes when doing exercises.

I panicked even more when a friend of mine asked me to study with her and teach her a few stuff a day before our paper which was yesterday. I covered all six chapters. Understand the concepts. But somehow when it comes to teaching others I start to be all forgetful and be all stressed out.

Alhamdulillah I was able to answer the finals with little complications. Little complications meaning good bye A+ and A average. Some of the questions were recycled from the past year questions so I was kind of happy with it. I'm pretty sure that I was able to answer most of the questions due to the frequent visiting to my lecturer's office, annoying her with dumb questions and such.

I knew the questions I was about to asked her were stupid and was prepared for her to throw stuff at me but she didn't went all demonic or satan at all. Not like she ever did. She listened to my questions, paused for a while , took a piece of paper and started explaining each of my question, one by one.

To be honest, I thought I was doomed yet again this semester for Algebra since I missed the two last classes where she literally finished two chapters. I was too afraid to asked for her notes for those last two chapter since I didn't attend those two classes. So instead I did the questions and referred to the text book. Once I grasped a bit of those two chapters then I pop myself into her office and explain to her about what I've understand and she would later correct me.

Overall I hope I PASS Algebra this semester.....

End for some, not for some

These past few weeks ( 2 weeks to be exact ) have been really hectic for me and the Cultural Unit Theatre kids. Everyone was busy preparing for our very own fashion week ! A first for our campus. I was lucky to only receive the task of getting gifts for the winners of the Fashionista competition , the VIPs and also for all of the great and lovely designers that sponsored some clothing line for the fashion show which was held on the 6th of March 2013. Everyone did a great job in doing their part in making the show a success. A few of the dancers including myself even performed for the event. Diamond and Gangnam Style. I never knew I would be dancing to such song as I kinda despise the song. All and all, it was a great event.

Before the fashion show we had another HUGE event the day before. That's right, the day before on the 5th ! Pre Graduation Dinner for all those seniors that were already in their final semesters. Just imagine doing work, running errands for the fashion during the day and practising our hearts out for the grand dinner. Even though we danced to only one song it was still a hectic week as we had to literally follow the choreography of Siti Nurhaliza's song. I forgot the name of the song. It was all worth it though since everyone in the hall that saw our performance gave  us huge applause . The choir department had the largest applause as they did something new and unique from the very first time. I bet none in the audience knew they were capable of doing such performance. Im also grateful that none of the juniors were giving us such hard times as the dinner was actually our (my friends and I) very first event without a bunch of seniors walking infront of us.... minus Sabby who accompanied us to the venue. A big thank you to Shamil and Syafiq who sacrificed their sweat and time in doing our make ups and also helping us with our costume ! I'd look like a drag if it wasn't for those two.

The last event that we had to perform for the semester was held yesterday at a different hotel in Kota Bharu. Anugerah Kecemerlangan Mahasiswa. Basically a night for all those high achievers and excellent students. Not to mention the organizations, leaders and also the sportsmen of our campus. Basically the dance department danced to 5 songs. Tired ? yes ! Worth it ? YES ! I mostly dance because I enjoy it not because of the spotlight or anything but the feeling you get when someone from the audience says you did a good job is beyond everything else ( a hint of exaggeration ) . I was so focused on performing and not smiling for our second/third performance that I did not notice the camera zoomed in on my face ! Thanks to Nana for telling me so. I was also kinda happy that I finally get to perform in front of my peers from my faculty.

I had a lot of fun in training and performing these two events. I'm also kinda sad as these would be the last event I would be performing with some of my seniors. I won't be able to stand and dance on the same stage as them next semester. It's sad. It feels like it was just yesterday that I registered for this family and it was just yesterday that I stalked most of my seniors on Facebook, Twitter and even Google ! I will forever remember every single thing that the seniors have thought me from dancing, leading and also managing events ! Thank you so much to all of you !

Tradition for the dancers to be cam whores !

With le Underground Brothers !

These two freaks ! Ayman and Tyka

Cooking Maggie during practice.

Why I am fat ! ( Precious moment I'll never forget )