Bottomless Pit *sarcasm*

Who knew one whole day of no classes ( due to Holiday ) could be so dragging. A bunch of my classmates went out for an over night near Tok Bali. They say they wanted to release some stress. But to be honest, they are just doing it for the sake of eating some fresh bbq seafood. I don't even know the stress that my classmates are talking about since we have not face any of our tests yet. Our nearest test is like next Thursday. Though most of us were pretty stressed out for our 3rd Programming quiz. We discussed the answer after doing it and thankfully most of us got more than half of the questions correct ( above 10 ).

My roommate decided to tag along with the girls so I was left all alone in my room. It was okay though. I like peace and quiet. I wanted to follow them but since I already had 'future plans' made, I really need to learn on saving my dough. The only thing I did last night was having late dinner with Arif and Ikki with a few others at the food court. Even then I had to constrain myself from eating/spending too much. Ended up chowing down on a mashed potato and some fries. Who knew holding your drool inside your mouth while your friends devour Chicken Chop could be so difficult ! It seriously did not help that before I went out with them, I just finished watching an episode of South Park where 68% of the story line was about Kentucky Fried Chicken ..... while the other % was about weed and testicular cancer.

Yet another night and still nothing to do. Spent most of the day catching up on Private Practice but refusing to watch the final episode of the series ! Decided to go for a run thinking that it could get rid of my sinus. It didn't by the way.

I got bored of watching series online so I decided to arrange my table. Its not that messy. A few things need to be arranged properly that's all. Books should be placed together, colognes and perfumes should be placed at the sides etc. From arranging my table to hunting trash in my back pack. Yes I go to class with a back pack. No it does not make me feel young.

Not trying to brag but I think that I've changed a lot this semester considering I have less trash in my bag than I did last semester. All there was in my bag was receipts from banks and 7 Eleven. I also found a bunch of non-academic related stuff in my bag. Stuff that I really need every time I go to class.......

Tadaaaaa....

No joke. Most of the stuff in the picture are really helpful to me and *cough* those around me.

1) Body Shop's Amorito Eau De Toiilette

    I started carrying this perfume around in my bag when a friend of mine from class said she liked the perfume I am wearing the other day. I don't know what's so special about the smell. The entire perfume literally smells of chocolate and makes me feel fat but at the same time it some how makes me feel all full. I usually use it on Mondays where I have 2x 3 hour classes and a 2 hour class with only an hour gap between the first and second class and since I don't have the chance to eat during the day, I would just spray this around a presto not hungry for 30 minutes.

2) Neutrogena's Moisturiser with 35 SPF

    I started using Neutrogena since 2009 after having my check up with Dr.Goodless. He suggested on using Neutrogena Moisturiser for reasons I have long forgotten. All I know is that it absorbs quickly into my skin and also has the benefit of having an SPF. I use a different moisturiser in the morning and before bed. I mostly use this after done praying. I have another different moisturiser when I'm in my room. I have a total of 3 moisturiser. One in the morning and before bed, one for after prayers during lecture periods and another when I'm in my room. Its a lot, I know.

3) Body Shop's Cherry Blossom Hand & Nail Cream

     Yes I use Hand & Nail Cream. Yes its Cherry Blossom and YES IT IS PINK ! But goodness gracious it smells wonderful ! The only reason I bought it was because my sister has one and we start the semesters at different time so I told myself that I just had to get one and so I did. Later on it became a permanent resident in my bag due to its nice scent. Basically I use the cream and rub them all over my hands after I finished some 'business' in the toilet. I am that insecure/paranoid. I am those people that think to themselves "What if they can smell toilet water or even worse !". SO everytime I am called to the toilet I bring this baby along with me.

4) Body Shop's Vitamin E Lip Care

     Yes I have a lot of stuff from body shop. They smell nice and really work so back off ! I have tried countless amount of lip care product from Nivea to Nivea to Vaseline etc And none of them worked for me. Yes You've heard it. Vaseline does not work on my super dry lips. Before I bought this I've read a lot of articles on model's beauty tips ( embarrassed ) and I found one article about how they easily get dry lips due to the constant travelling and being exposed to the cold air. This one model said for long hour flights she would break Vitamin E capsules and just spread them across her lips before she sleeps and her lips would not be dry when the plane lands. So when I was at a store with my mum, I decided to get the Vitamin E Lip Care and test the theory out. I have read countless articles on how Vitamin E this, Vitamin E that but seriously, I was so shock at how effective the Lip Care worked on me. My lips stayed moist for like 4 5 hours ! It really is a life saver to the length of immediately getting a new one when my old one was gone/missing/stolen by a gremlin.

5) Tiger Balm Ointment

     I didn't see how this ointment was useful at all back when I was in school but during the orientation week of University, this ointment seriously help me get through that horrible week. I would either spread some on my nose if they were block and near my eyes if I feel all sleepy due to the boring talks that were being held. Until today, I still use it for those two reasons. Especially during those early 8 o'clock classes.

6)  Watson's Invigorating Wet Tissue

     I have the wet tissues in Coral, Green Tea, Lemon and also the one in my bag which is Lemon Grass. I have no idea why I have wet tissues in my bag. I rarely use them. I only bought them cause of the different scents and how cute the packaging was ! I really should go and get some packed DRY tissues in my bag. 

Well, that's all of my rambling for tonight. Gonna go and watch the final episode of Private Practice and cry some more later.

I-Techq's Charity Run with the Orphanage

Finally, I have been waiting for this day (19/1/13) for more than 2 weeks now. Our campus Statistic Society, I-Techqs held a charity run with a bunch of kids from the orphanage today. One of the reasons why I decided to join the event was mainly for charity. I mean, its not everyday an event like this just pops up out of nowhere right ? But still, it took me 2 or 3 days to decided whether I should join the run. In the end, I made a good choice.

Woke up super early today around 6 o'clock in the morning. The view from my window was pitch black. Even though I still had a few hours to spare in bed, I decided to wake up early so that I can see how my friends handle the pre-event work. I arrived at the event grounds around 7.30 in the morning. I was the first participant to arrive. Everybody else is practically sleeping in their comfy beds while I just stood there at a corner trying really hard not to die due to hypothermia.

Everyone from the society wore red, coincidentally I wore red for the event. Well more of a magenta kind of red. It wasn't long ( an hour after I arrived ) until other participants arrived. I was surprised that early of guys arrived first before the girls did. I literally lost hope of getting first place for the event since most of the guys that arrived later after me were all those typical athlete, sports kind of guy. A friend of mine asked me whether I could get top 3 or 5. I was standing at that time so I started pointing at the rest of the guys that were sitting behind my friend. I told him how I have not a slight chance of making it in the top 30 with all the guys sitting there being more energised and fit than I am. Guess what? Most of them heard what I said and they laughed. Really loud. I didn't see it as something to be embarrassed about so I laughed with them. One guy in particular even went up to me and said to run for fun....the same guy ended up first place.

But yeah in the end I run merely for fun. There was no way I could catch up to Pali or the guys from my floor. So I just enjoyed the moment. Most of the moments consisted of me yelling loudly at people saying to watch out for in coming cars and jokes about how the next check point is far away from where other people are. Even though I did not know what I got for the race, I am just proud that I was able to finish the race without puking or shouting vulgarity words out in the open due to exhaustion.

After the race there was booths set up by 'ProStar' where we can do health check ups. Height, weight, BMIs, Nicotine count, Blood Sugar level etc. I decided to do all of them instead of going back to my room early. Basically I weighed ** kilos ! and my height was 1**. My body mass index was okay though, a 26.2. I had 0% Nicotine in my body which surprised my lecturers a lot. I cannot believe that they thought I smoke cigarettes ! DId 33 sit ups and was able to stretch as far as 43 cm for the health screening. At the end of doing all sorts of ridiculous health related stuff, I thought to myself I just wasted my time and all I got was this  paper indicating my results. I got an 'excellent' for the health screening test by the way.

At the end of the day, prizes were given out to the top 3 runners. There was a bunch of categories, each divided into boys and girls.University students, kids and also University staff. To be honest, it was kind off funny how my first semester statistic lecturer won first prize for the staff category. I didn't bother paying much attention for the closing event until the mc announced my name all. My friends were yelling at me in a mean way to go to the front. I was busy texting my friend and did not know what was happening, so I got infront of everyone not knowing why I was called when all of a sudden a girl came up and gave me a hamper full of junk food which I have consumed 45% of it. Apparently I have an ideal body mass index so they decided to give me something.

The kids were not alone though. There was also a foreign exchange student from Germany, Stefen. Most of us thought he was a foreign English teacher at first. All of the participants minus the kids were surprised when Stefen started speaking in Malay. He literally spoke in Bahasa Melayu through out the whole event ! The only word he didn't know or forgot was 'Selesa' so I translated it to him as 'Comfortable'. The kids, boys and girls are really fond of him. After everything was over, everyone gathered around him and asked him how the race was and stuff.

The event was full of laughter mostly done by the kids as they do have lots of energy compare to us grown ups. Through out the fun filled event, full of joyous laughter and smiles, I almost forgot that these kids have no parents. They look just like any other normal kids but somehow they look happier than others. Even though some were a bit rough around the edges, I can see the strong bonds between the kids. I think my eyes went all watery for a bit. I mean, I seriously cannot imagine myself in their position and seriously have no idea how they feel. Some people are just blessed by God differently than others. Some you can see it now while others Insyaallah it will happen in the future.

Overall the event was great. The committee from both I-Techqs and ProStar did an awesome job in conducting the event. Hoping to see more events like this in the future.

Closing event. You can see which part of the crowd are the University students and which are our special guests for the day. (Hint:University Students=Texting 24/7)

Food was great. Stefen in the left side of the picture sitting next to Danny. The kids in the middle talked non-stop. It was hilarious.

Some more pics of them during lunch.

Decisions. Decisions and a Back Up Plan

I was inspired to write today's/tonight's post this afternoon a few hours ago while I was in my room with my room mate sitting next to me. He was busy multitasking serving the web and also on the phone with his younger sister who just finished high school (SPM). 

Those that attend public University knows well about the UPU system where we need to get a unique pin number and go online, fill in our information and choose the courses we want and which university we want to attend to. My choices was heavily influenced by my results and also by a few outside whisperers but at that time I knew what I wanted to take. You can say I was pretty confident at that time. Even though it was not fully my own will that wanted to take Statistics but I still did some research on the programme and the different job opportunities that is in stored for me once I graduate from the Diploma programme.

I was really surprised when my friend asked his sister what she wanted to take or fill in as her first choice. I literally can hear her saying the words " I don't know".  I remember giving my room mate a weird look. Accountancy ? No. Banking? No. I even step inside their conversation and suggested English. My friend just laughed at it and told her sister of how awful her English was let alone to take a full 3 year programme on the subject/language.

An aunt of mine said that the reason she is sending my cousin to do his A-levels is because he is not sure of what to take. In some institutions you can actually choose the subjects you want to take for your A-levels. You can mix Biology and Chemistry with Arts and Economics. Study English literature while also doing logical mathematics. Some institution in the country though has classified their A-level programmes into Science and Business/Economics programmes which kinda takes away the meaning of "the right to choose the subject". It is pricey to do A-levels in our country since most of it are done in private colleges/universities.  

If you cannot afford to go to private institutions you can just attend a public institution and just do a foundation or a diploma programme. If you are unsatisfied with your diploma programme you can just quit half way and switch to a different programme of your liking or just finish the current diploma programme you are in and switch faculties/programmes when you apply for your bachelor programme. It really does sound like you are wasting your time. A few months back I thought it was too but then I realised that what's important is the things you learn along the way. I mean sure I might not take a degree in Statistics or work in a Statistic Department in the future but when will I ever get the chance to study about Forecasting, Quality Improvement, Regression and other Statistical subjects that I can barely keep up with ?

Some people might say that you need passion in order to do something. Sure that is true. But passion alone wont do. A lot of effort and hard work is needed as well in order to succeed. To be honest, I think the latter is greater than passion. Sure a person can still succeed with only hard work and effort but with no sort of passion at all as long as he takes it in a positive way. Not seeing things as being forced on by others. Doing it for the experience is a good example in receiving things in a positive way. This semester I am seriously trying my best to look every inch of the subjects I am taking in a positive way and being grateful to all of the help that I am getting.

I will literally not survive my Tools For Quality Class if my senior had not gave me her manual. Full of colourful notes written on every page, who wouldn't get excited to study?

My advice is to always have a back up plan. If your results make you unqualified for your dream career try and look into a different field. If you want to work in the medical field but got a C in Biology, why not try and  take a course in the plantation field of Engineering. Who knows, you might just like it. If you still want to pursue your dream career try to find an alternative route in order to reach it. You can do a diploma in Science or take Science subjects for your A-levels and apply for a medical related programme once your are done.

Also do a lot of research. Not only on the careers you want to take but also other working fields where you might never think of working in. I mean hey, what person below the age of 18 has heard of the Department of Statistics ?

Joker Knows No Emotion (Bully)

Jokes. Teasing. Everybody does it. Who doesn't ? Sure its fun to pull of a few pranks, do harmless jokes/teases for laughs but when it goes to far man does it hurt.

To be honest, I was going to do a totally different post than what you people are about to read. Mostly about the things I did this weekend but the 'issue' popped into my mind all of a sudden while I was busy doing the laundry about a few hours ago and I went back and forth on whether I should be writing about it at all. I mean, the person that did this might think that it was only a harmless joke. It is at first though, but the persistent of this human being on doing it over and over again just made the harmless joke into a real pain in the ass (emotions).

For those that don't know. I am from Sarawak. I am a Malay. I am 20. I am Muslim. The look on people's faces when I tell them that I am from Sarawak is priceless I can't lie about that. A few other don't even believe me until I show them my identification card or speak in dialect on the phone .... in front of them.

Jokes. I love them to death. Minus those countless amount of comedy show/competition they keep on airing on television. I surprise myself when I can make jokes out of thin air and also happy/pleased when others that hear it for the first time including myself laugh after hearing the joke. Not just joking, but I also tease here and there. Usually my teasing involves about a funny mistake that a person have made before but I don't think I have gone over board ( who knows ) with my teasing since my target in the end laughs at it as well.

Well you know what they say, it is fun to make fun of others or when others are the target but it sure as hell ain't fun when you're the target or jokes, teasing etc. I usually just shrug it off if some random person teases me though if a person I knew well like a close friends or junior I'd do my very best and analyse their teasing/jokes and try to find at least something that truly is funny. If I can't find anything humorous about it, I would just put on a fake smile or laughter. I kid you not, a friend of mine once said that I have absolute control over my body language.

But the ones that I cannot stand are people that keep on repeating the same script ( teasing ) towards you over and over again. Even after explaining to them on how their joke does not make any sense at all since it has so much error in the basics.

A few nights ago, a guy that knows me for a few years gave me a surprised look when he heard I was a Muslim. Like seriously. We go to the same activities. We have mutual friends. We hang out a few times. Why give me the look. Heck we even prayed next to each other a few times. I knew he was joking so I just laughed it off and gave him a light tap on the shoulder. Then man was he on a roll after that. He started asking whether I was of an ethnic group from my state. After that he started saying my name where insted of saying 'Bin" (for Malays) he said "Anak Lelaki" which if I am not mistaken is for Indians. Again I just laugh it off but explained to him that Ibans do not use "Anak Lelaki but just the "Anak" part. And again he said "Oh so you're Izzat Anak ???" That's when it had gotten over board. A friend sitting nearby was laughing a bit but then stop when the joke/question was continuously being asked over and over again by the same person. He even continue asking the same question on our way back to our room.

I knew at this point the jokes, teasing has somehow turn into bullying without the person doing it knowing at all. People say that 'teens' in school bully to hide their own insecurities. Family problems, weight issues, jealousy etc. Bullies make themselves feel good by downing other people. Knowing that others feel as miserable as they are or even more makes bullies feel like they are better than others.

Instead of being depressed due to bullying and such, why not just ignore the lad and think about the good thing that has happened to you. Caring to much about what bad things bullies have to say is just a waste of your precious time. So that is what I am going to do. I wont be ignoring that person but if he brings up the same old joke, my only response is to walk away.

Remember, bullies/jerks bully cause they are full of insecurities.