Phase

I am pretty sure everybody wears different types of clothes/outfit as they grow up. (fashion phase) I know I experience this phase and I still do to be honest.

I can hardly remember the stuff that I wore when I was in Primary School. All I remembered was wearing those Polo shirts when I am out with the family or going to extra classes at school. Back then I did not care or give a them about fashion as testosterone has not kicked in yet when I was 7-12. There was also a phase where I started to wear mostly black or dark coloured outfits as they make me look slimmer and hide my extra 'friends' when I was in lower Secondary School.

I started to wear more of those checkered outfits as I was attracted towards its wide range of colours and tones. At times, I would wear a plain t-shirt and turn the checkered shirts as an outer wear. I was pretty self-concious of my body and I still do actually. I always buy 'L' size clothes even though medium and some times small fits me perfectly. I started wearing clothes that are NOT 'L' or fits me perfectly when one day a friend of mind was curious of why all of my clothes were a size 'L'. I told him I look fat in other sizes and that it was really comfortable. My friend told me that he has seen me topless and says that I look even fatter in those 'L' outfits.

I started looking at pictures of myself, which I rarely do and you know what I see ? It was if my face was edited on Rossie's body ! I know my body but the picture is me. The clothes that I wear basically either makes me look fat or huge or how Tyra would say it fiercely real. Guess what ? I do not want to look like that. So I started buying clothes that fits me perfectly. I have no idea why but I seriously cannot take my eyes off outfits that have Aztec prints or Red Indian inspired outfit. If you see me out of the house or room, you will notice that a few of my outfits have Aztec prints on them .

I am a sucker for those types of outfit every time I am in stores especially TopMan and Forever 21( yes they have a men's section thank you very much)

Right now I am trying to find a 'male' version of Spencer Hasting's outfit. I am seriously obsessed with her blazers,sweaters,knit wear,coats,jackets and everything else she has worn on Pretty Little Liars. I found those 'sailor' inspired blazers/jackets at this one store but then it was for the opposite sex and it was a size 3 lmao. Sadly F21 did not have them as well so I ended up not buying a jacket/blazer instead I bought something else .

3 vs 1

Its been 2 days since I got back from my 1 week trip to Kuala Lumpur. I was supposed to go there for 4 days to visit my cousin but then I was informed that my interview with UM was on the 24th so I extended my stay there.

Some of you might know why I put the title of this post as "3 vs 1" . For those that don't, it basically means 3 Panels of Interviewers against me (1). I was not nervous at all for the interview as I had already prep for it a few days ago and did some of my research. As I entered the room,there were 3 SERIOUSLY different looking people sitting across the room ( Interviewers ) . One of them was a guy who was a lecturer there in his late 30s.The one sitting in the middle was also a lecturer(Malay) and I am pretty sure she is also a nurse there and the last panel was a Chinese Nurse. I was kinda happy that one of the interviewer was a Chinese cause I can freely speak in English cause at first I thought the session was going to be fully conducted in English but to my surprise  , the other 2 asked questions in Bahasa so I was kinda shock as I thought it was going to be fully in English but again thank goodness the last interviewer was there.

The first question kinda had me stuck . "What have you prepared for this interview?" Now if the question was in English I'd be able to answer it but then it was asked in Bahasa so I kinda froze for a while. I pulled myself together and started talking about a few research I have done about nursing. How it is in high demand in our country especially male nurses and also about the discriminations of nurse. There were also question of where I see myself in 5 years from now,my view on men judging male nurses,worst part of nursing and also the Million Dollar question of why I want to become a nurse.

Basically the interview went well ( I hope ) . Results are out in June . Hopefully I'll get into the programme since it has been my dream to work in that particular profession .

I Seriously have no idea what to do during this holiday. I usually cook random stuff when Im bored. Hence the pictures above are some of the food that I make myself :).... minus the raw chicken :p

Procrastination at its best !

The first 2 papers which was English and Islamic Studies was ok since they were basically needed memorisations and stuff.

I was also not scared preparing face finance since I had finished all of the past year questions and also all of the exercises and because it is the subject I was most focus through out the semester. I was also prepared cause some of my friends were able to help me with the first few chapters which I suck. Thanks again you guys !

It was for the other 2 subject I was worried about, Calculus 2 and Probability Statistics. I seriously have not done a single past year question for any of the 2 subject. I literally deleted every info I knew about the subjects and start from SCRATCH ! I literally had only 5 days to prepared for all 3 papers including Finance. My friends helped me out a lot with statistics. Hanisah,Nonoy and Apan basically explain to me about it from chapter 1 until chapter 6.The night before the paper I did not know what I should be doing so I took out my coloured pens and a piece of paper and wrote down all the equations and situations and just memorised it.Did some questions and slept at 4 in the morning and woke up at 10 and did the same thing till it was time to face the paper. To everyone's surprise I exited the exam hall 40 minutes earlier than scheduled. It was ok since I did not leave out any questions unanswered.

For Calculus 2 it was a bit different. No matter how much they explain it to me I still was unable to do any exercises. I actually gave up at one point and just focus on Chapter 5 and Chapter 3 because from my little research,80% of the questions are from those chapter.As usual slept at 4 am and woke up at 10. Sadly I did not exit the hall early because it was really difficult! The paper consisted of only 60% from Chapter 5 !I even leave out a few questions.

Hopefully I PASS the 2 last subjects :)

Should I like or dislike

Basically I procrastinate a lot for my second semester of University. Maybe it was because I was so caught up with Dance,CUTE and helping out with events for I-Techqs. With so many things to do. Studying just seem irrelevant at that time.

I even skip classes when I dont feel like going to one. Im practically lost when Im in Probability and Statistics class. At first I was ok with everything but then most of the events and performance were on Wednesday so I am mostly absent for that class on Wednesday. This caused the lecturer to start talking about how I am always absent for her class,I look tired,not interested in the subject etc etc. To be honest, I actually never felt that way about her class until she open it up. Because of it,I slowly started hating the class like literally.I'd do all the work during the tutorials but then once out of the class,I never open the text book or notes once ! Its also because of the lecturer by the way she talks about me and stuff. Im a type of person that WILL like/love the lecturer if 1)they ignore me completely and acknowledge my existence when I ask questions and 2) if the lecturer continuously praise me and says Im doing a good job or 3)Its English class

Its a bit different for Finance class. During first class I was super nervous that it was going to be difficult for me since it involves like 38% of Financial Accounting and I SUCK big time in that subject.SO I asked the lecturer all sorts of questions.I was not so good at the subject for the first few chapters but then when we entered the topic where we need to find the future/present value of something,I understand everything and was able to do the tutorials and exercises with ease and was also able to do them in a short amount of time.I think that got the attention of my lecturer so he started asking me to go out front and explain to everyone how to do it and also keeps on praising how a good job I am doing. I did not get a full mark for the 2nd test but I was satisfied with what I got.Even duirng the test I was literally had my head in the books,I did all the past year questions and even wrote down all the equations in 1 single paper for each chapter with different colours. I was able to memorise all of them because of it.I was so happy during the 2nd test because I memorised everything.

Some people might say its wrong for me to like and dislike subjects and that my reasons are just pure bull shits.

Till then..