It has been a really hectic week for me. Quizzes, tests, dance practice, events and so on. You can see how stress I am by counting the pimples that have miraculously appear on my face !
Thank goodness I was able to answer most of them with ease though there were a few complication which later on forced me to look to the right then left then right again.
I was so caught up with everything that I forgot that today (1/2/13) was my late friend's 20th birthday....
Its been that long huh? 3 years ? I don't know how people count it but I'll just assume its been 3 years. It is really surprising how fast time flies. One minute you're packing all of your high school books into storage, the next you're in your campus room listening to songs on your laptop while updating your blog. I can only imagine the things we would talk about if you were still here...but you are in a better place now and thinking about it does make me happy.
Some random guy tweeted Happy Birthday to his friend and asked when is his turn to die and said love you and stuff ( in Malay ). I literally laughed out loud, thinking how funny it was for a friend to say such things on a friend's birthday. Even my friends join in the laughter but a few minutes later my brain stopped. I forgot that it was Yasmine's birthday today and for me to laugh at such things somehow makes me sick and sad.
Sure people don't really mean it when they say "Go hang yourself" or "Please die" or "Please kill yourself" but I don't know. It somehow gives a whole new deeper meaning to those that had the person they'e closed with taken away from them.
Sure a bunch of my relatives that I barely know had passed on but somehow the passing of my closed friends slowly taught me to appreciate life even more and not to waste it. I'm not saying that I'm not wasting time but at times I think to myself "Maybe I should not do this...or that...or even this. Instead I should attend this,do that,not miss this" and so on.
Doing things things you can't do. Not destroying myself like you told me too. Learning from the careless mistakes I have made...
Happy Birthday (l1/2/2013) Yasmine Ghazali .... Al-Fatihah... May you rest in peace dearest friend....
